When Was The Last Time I Cried?
I was literally crying not ten minutes ago.
Why?
Onions. Pickling Onions to be specific because it's the time of year where one might set to preparing pickling onions in time for Christmas and that's the kind of thing we do in our house so I was crying earlier.
I always think in those moments where I'm stood shoulder to shoulder with mum int he kitchen and we're prepping or cleaning or cooking. I think in those moments how different my whole life you be if the roles of my blended family were reversed. I think how different it would be if it were mum who'd left and not dad. I think about how different my life would be with out mum. The answer is actually pretty awful.
I'm a lot like my mum, I'm really glad about that too. She's caring and compassionate. Funny and very pretty. She's so strong and occasionally a little too stubborn for her own good.
She knows we love her and that without her me and my sister wouldn't be who we are and sometime I am so grateful for those moments where we move round each other in our tiny little kitchen with ease because we've done it so many times and where would be I without those moments where we get to just hang out albeit, sometimes unproductive and filled with Minecraft.
Still. I think it's really important to think about the what ifs of life.
What if we never moved back from Spain and I grew up there?
What if I didn't go the High school that I did?
What if I stayed at sixth form instead of going to college?
I think about these and I couldn't keep count of the number of people whom I'd never have met if not for where I went to school or lived.
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On a more serious note.
I had an emotional meltdown yesterday. Full on temper tantrum. I'm 22 years old but sometimes my mood swings are crazy and so am I... hehe .
It was over something ridiculous too. Something I know I could have done if I'd just stopped and breathed and thought for a second but instead, I cried and gave up and had a nice hot bath to relax.
Then I apologised to mum whom I'd cried to and snapped at because I'm actually still a four year old at heart and can't handle things sometimes.
When was the last time you cried? Was it happy or sad or silly?
Throw me a comment down below and we'll chat about it.
Cheers.
Why?
Onions. Pickling Onions to be specific because it's the time of year where one might set to preparing pickling onions in time for Christmas and that's the kind of thing we do in our house so I was crying earlier.
I always think in those moments where I'm stood shoulder to shoulder with mum int he kitchen and we're prepping or cleaning or cooking. I think in those moments how different my whole life you be if the roles of my blended family were reversed. I think how different it would be if it were mum who'd left and not dad. I think about how different my life would be with out mum. The answer is actually pretty awful.
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| From Left: Mum, Me and Nicole (My Sister) |
I'm a lot like my mum, I'm really glad about that too. She's caring and compassionate. Funny and very pretty. She's so strong and occasionally a little too stubborn for her own good.
She knows we love her and that without her me and my sister wouldn't be who we are and sometime I am so grateful for those moments where we move round each other in our tiny little kitchen with ease because we've done it so many times and where would be I without those moments where we get to just hang out albeit, sometimes unproductive and filled with Minecraft.
Still. I think it's really important to think about the what ifs of life.
What if we never moved back from Spain and I grew up there?
What if I didn't go the High school that I did?
What if I stayed at sixth form instead of going to college?
I think about these and I couldn't keep count of the number of people whom I'd never have met if not for where I went to school or lived.
-
On a more serious note.
I had an emotional meltdown yesterday. Full on temper tantrum. I'm 22 years old but sometimes my mood swings are crazy and so am I... hehe .
It was over something ridiculous too. Something I know I could have done if I'd just stopped and breathed and thought for a second but instead, I cried and gave up and had a nice hot bath to relax.
Then I apologised to mum whom I'd cried to and snapped at because I'm actually still a four year old at heart and can't handle things sometimes.
When was the last time you cried? Was it happy or sad or silly?
Throw me a comment down below and we'll chat about it.
Cheers.
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